(Proof!) Friday, May 29, 2015 @9:45 AM
A few weeks ago I was presented with an opportunity to teach yoga on Fridays.
Let me back up a bit, first.
When I graduated from teacher training in 2014, if my awesome friend and fellow yogi, Dawn, hadn't given my name out to a studio, and that studio owner didn't call me, my yoga teaching certificate woulda been collecting dust on my dresser. Ok, in my craft closet, along with all the other supplies I've bought for projects that have yet to be crafted. Whatever.
But, my friend DID give out my name and number, that studio DID contact me, and because of that, I started teaching 4 days after I received my certificate. Throughout the past year, though, I've wondered if teaching yoga is the right career path for me. I like to teach, but I'm not that sure of myself. I am easily bothered if I think my words don't land with people or fear my class just sucked. I always feel vulnerable if anyone I know shows up to take a class of mine, I worry what other teachers will think of my teaching, and I'm shocked when people say I'm a good teacher, because most of the time, *I* don't see it. But I keep showing up.
That being said, I also wasn't doing anything more about it. (read: I wasn't doing anything out of my comfort zone.) I was still showing up to my Mon-Fri job, happy with the tasks and job description, but knowing that this is not what I wanted to do for the rest of my life. (no offense, Bossman… you have accommodated my schedule without question; I'm very grateful.)
So there I was… in a job I liked but knew wasn't my life time career, teaching in just one studio, scared to venture elsewhere, and scared that if I did and didn't like it, I'd have a breakdown over what I was supposed to be when I grew up. (yeah, I'm in my ...ahem... late 30's)
After many discussions with my hubby about how teaching would be at different hours then what we had become accustomed to with our Monday-Friday jobs (at least at first) we came to the conclusion that we would try it and see how things worked out, in addition to what I'm working now. As you might know, we have kids and as you know, family is my #1 priority, so this took a lot to talk about and hash out. As I type this, we are in the middle of both little league and flag football with Bubbah, and Boo's art classes just ended yesterday.
I (finally!) put it out into the universe that I wanted a new path… no, that I wanted to forge my own path… and furthermore, if yoga was my path to forge, that I wanted those opportunities to present themselves to me. I figured, "hey, why not ask for what you want, instead of complaining about what you don't have?"
I was asked to sub a class for a month at the studio I was teaching at. That.day.
The following day while at a yoga studio taking a class, the owner and I got to talking, and I was put on her sub list. The next day, I was asked to sub a class.
Ok, ok, I get it… the universe was giving me a sign.
I had a consult with someone that made the suggestions that further propelled me towards living my dream. "Get yourself out there. Teach. Create. Write. Work on your website. Most importantly, make the time to do so. THEN figure out if yoga is or isn't your thing."
So, I did. I've worked on my website. I'm on more sub lists at studios, which is a start for anyone that has a job that limits the times you can teach. And while I haven't created anything that's ready for my shop on Etsy, I've taken pictures of items to showcase, and have bought supplies for a project I'm really excited about. I'd say blogging is my biggest challenge … finding the time to actually sit and write, but I'm finding it just as hard to carve out time for my personal yoga practice, and to craft and create as well.
Which brings me to my opening line of this post: A few weeks ago I was presented with an opportunity to teach yoga on Fridays.
After mulling it over, and realizing that this is, in fact, exactly what I put out into the universe, I approached my boss and ask for Fridays off. Which, to my complete surprise and ensuing gratefulness, he granted, along with an, "I know this is really important to you" compliment.
My class doesn't start until the first Friday in June (woot woot!), and after my schedule took another turn this morning, I found myself with a complete day off. While I could have blown the whole day off and sunk my toes into the sand at Sandy Neck, I (strongly) resisted the urge and have been a productive bee on my first 'day-off-of-day-job, day-on-of-dream-job'. After all, if I'm going to be in business for myself one day, I need to act as if I'm in business for myself now.. And kicking it off at the beach, while fun, wouldn't be right. Maybe next week, after I teach my new class, I'll have my writing assignment and class design be beach oriented.
But things happen for a reason. I was able to catch up on emails, and for the first time in a long time, have less than 10 emails in my inbox. I was able to catch up with my mom over the phone, and NOT while driving. I was able to catch up on computer stuff as well, and since I had the time to do so, figured out some things that had been weighing on me, realizing that today was, in all actuality, the best Friday to start to forge my path. Not last Friday, not next Friday. Today.
I could hashtag that I'm humbled, blessed, and happy, (actually, I DID here), but you get the idea. I'm just grateful that I'm here, now, in this moment, exactly where I'm supposed to be, doing exactly what I'm supposed to do.
Until next time, and I hope next time is a lot sooner than the length between posts this time, Love, Happiness, and Coffee,
~ Heather ~