So, obviously I've done a lot of thinking over last week, wondering if my decision to stop teaching yoga was the right one. Last week was my official last week of teaching (for now? forever?), and some students asked me if I was teaching anywhere else and why I was leaving. While I knew I was solid in my decision, when you are questioned, you're only human if you in turn question yourself.
I'm still solid in my decision, much to the disappointment of some students that I've really looked forward to teaching over the past eight months, but did wonder if I had the opportunity to do this all over again, would I change anything along the way? Would I have done a little more research into what I was giving up to follow a dream? Should I have gotten quiet on what I wanted sooner? Should I have stopped trying to take on so much and just be ok with the vastly different 'work' hours? No. I would've done it all the same again.
Sometimes you question what you're doing. You wonder if the step you're about to take is the right one, if it makes sense, if maybe you should wait just a little longer before. You question if the decisions you've made in your past were right, or you worry about decisions you made in your past and if they'll haunt your present and future. Maybe you play the 'shoulda, coulda, woulda' game of your past, or the 'what if' game of your future. Don't. Relax and let go. It will all work out in the end. We aren't meant to see where we're headed, because we would inevitably change our course.
I try to remember this quote I read by Alan Cumming in his book, "Not My Father's Son".
"I am the product of all the experiences I have had, good and bad, and if I am in a happy place in my life (as I truly am), then I can have no regrets about any of the combination of events and circumstances that have led me to the here and now."
Have a great rest of your Monday ... oh and PLAY BALL!!!!!
Love, happiness coffee, and baseball,
~ Heather ~